Uneventful and weird...

Well life has been pretty uneventful, which I guess is a good thing but that only leaves worry. I know I should worry but when a lot isn't happening its hard not to and you question all the little things. Right now I have a call into my Doc's office because of some pain. I'm really hoping its nothing and I'm just freaking but the longer I sit at home on my day off (which should be enjoyable and relaxing) the more I'm stressing.
I think I'm now getting into the stage of irritability. Its like everything sets me off these days I either get so upset that I start threatening (mostly to ryan) and I surprise even myself at the things I say... and I have to laugh about it later after calming down of course. Other times I find myself so upset I just cry because I'm so frustrated. See pretty boring stuff right... I know I shouldn't let things bother me so much but its hard with so many hormones. I swear though that my threats so Ryan are only "warning shots" I mean I warn him to stop what he's doing or saying or I'll ....
I've also started to want to do the strangest things. I know most of you will think its totally gross but as of a couple of nights ago I really want to lick Ryan's eyeball. Wow that sounds really gross but for some reason I'm super curious and don't find it repulsive. Its probably super unsanitary but I can' get over how curious I am. I just want to touch my tongue to the white part, I want to know what it would feel like on the tip of my tongue. I'm thinking this has something to do with pregnancy because I can't ever remember wanting to do something like this before and I've heard of pregnant women wanting to weird things like glue or to eat paper or toilet paper and I find all those repulsive but for some reason licking my husbands eye doesn't! Wow the more I write on this the more in theory I should find it gross and not want to do it anymore but I almost just makes me want to more. As of now he says absolutely not but I'm hoping he'll cave, although maybe its better if he doesn't because it could end up being one of those things I regret or find repulsive after the baby comes and think "how could you ever let me do that!!"