Just Kidding...

IT'S A BOY!!
I can't believe it but we are really excited! I have to be completely honest and say I cried. I think I cried because I was getting so used to it being a girl and getting really excited about all the bows and ribbons, but now I can get excited about trucks and sports and whatever else boys like. I think it was because of shock that the tears came but they weren't sad tears...its just hard to explain. I am the youngest of 4 girls so I don't really know a whole lot about boys. It should be really interesting to say the least but I'm looking forward to it and of course Ryan is thrilled!

Uneventful and weird...

Well life has been pretty uneventful, which I guess is a good thing but that only leaves worry. I know I should worry but when a lot isn't happening its hard not to and you question all the little things. Right now I have a call into my Doc's office because of some pain. I'm really hoping its nothing and I'm just freaking but the longer I sit at home on my day off (which should be enjoyable and relaxing) the more I'm stressing.
I think I'm now getting into the stage of irritability. Its like everything sets me off these days I either get so upset that I start threatening (mostly to ryan) and I surprise even myself at the things I say... and I have to laugh about it later after calming down of course. Other times I find myself so upset I just cry because I'm so frustrated. See pretty boring stuff right... I know I shouldn't let things bother me so much but its hard with so many hormones. I swear though that my threats so Ryan are only "warning shots" I mean I warn him to stop what he's doing or saying or I'll ....
I've also started to want to do the strangest things. I know most of you will think its totally gross but as of a couple of nights ago I really want to lick Ryan's eyeball. Wow that sounds really gross but for some reason I'm super curious and don't find it repulsive. Its probably super unsanitary but I can' get over how curious I am. I just want to touch my tongue to the white part, I want to know what it would feel like on the tip of my tongue. I'm thinking this has something to do with pregnancy because I can't ever remember wanting to do something like this before and I've heard of pregnant women wanting to weird things like glue or to eat paper or toilet paper and I find all those repulsive but for some reason licking my husbands eye doesn't! Wow the more I write on this the more in theory I should find it gross and not want to do it anymore but I almost just makes me want to more. As of now he says absolutely not but I'm hoping he'll cave, although maybe its better if he doesn't because it could end up being one of those things I regret or find repulsive after the baby comes and think "how could you ever let me do that!!"

Butt Crack Santa...

is now what my husband is calling our child and I can't really be upset because I'm the one that came up with it. Here's how it all went down....

All our friends and family were wanting to know what names we like and I proceeded to tell them that we really love the name Penelope. I know that its kind of a love hate name but I did not think we'd get some of the reactions we got. One friend told me that my baby would come out ugly and with warts all over her if we names her that. She just would not give up on how awful she thinks the name is and kept texting me all this crap about it. Well I was getting so mad (oh the hormones) that I started yelling at Ryan about it. Not yelling at him but more about the situation and how rude I think it is, its not like you'd walk up to someone and tell them that their name is awful or walk up to a parent and ask how the heck they could name your child that. I understand if its not your style but you don't have to be mean!! Well in the heat of the moment I said what do people want me to name her "Butt Crack Santa??" He just started laughing really hard and asked how the heck I came up with that. I said I didn't know and that I was just upset and it was the first thing that popped into my head. Well he just thinks its so funny and now calls that baby Butt Crack Santa. I'm not sure how I feel about this though I have to say every time I hear it now or say it it makes me laugh! Oh and I text that to my friend and she said that that would be a prettier name than Penelope....oh the advice and opinions we get when we're pregnant!

It's a GIRL!!!

I would just like to say that I knew and that everyone else was wrong haha!! I even told Dr. Nilson and his nurse Finley twice that I was the only one that thought girl. Right away in the beginning of the u/s she spread her legs wide open and gave us the perfect shot! Dr. Nilson said he was about 99% sure it was a little girl and Ryan's response was something like... So they're still a chance it could grow a penis?? I couldn't believe he said that but I think he's just nervous I mean I kinda am another little me running around?? Yikes!! I do have to say that I'm really excited for the bows and big flowers and bright colors.
Later that night Amanda came over to help me make cupcakes with pink in the center so when people bit into them they'd know it was a girl. It was so much fun passing them out and watching people's reaction. I also should add that they were amazingly delicious!! While we were baking Ryan left to go fill my tank with gas (such a gentleman I know) and came back with gifts! He got me or well the baby a pink and white bib that says I Love My Mommy and a little thing you put in the window of your car that says Princess on Board! He also got me the sweetest card and he always writes the best messages in them. I am truly blessed with the best husband and we're both really excited for our little girl!

A little bit of crazy...

So we have this dog who gets all emotional and his way of telling us he's less than happy is peeing on the carpet. I can't really complain to much because I really don't have to clean it up to often. When I come home and see it I just get to leave it and I then tell my loving husband about it when he gets home. You're probably thinking that I'm lazy and blah blah blah but really my husband is a clean freak and no matter what, if I scrubbed it for hours or 30 seconds he'd come home and clean it all over again. It gets super annoying but I can't say I mind especially being pregnant. Bos hasn't done it in awhile but the other night I woke up thinking he had, he's peed while I was sleeping before and Ryan was out in the living room. See Ryan tucks me in at night because I go to bed early and he's a total night owl. We have a little routine and if I ever need anything I just yell for him (he's normally playing video games) and he comes in to see what I need...saltines, water, etc. Let me first say that when you're pregnant your nose becomes so sensitive to the slightest smells and you start to compare and say things smell like other things. Well I'm dead asleep and I wake up screaming for Ryan, he comes running in and asking me what's wrong and all I can say is "it smells like warm urine!" Ryan "what?" Me: "it smells like warm urine hurry I think the dogs peeing." Ryan"honey it doesn't and the dogs are sleeping." Well I make him look all over the room anyway and check all the blankets, all the while he's laughing under his breath at me. He comes back over whispers everything is ok and that I should call back asleep. Well I'm sleep in less than 5 minutes and the rest of the night is pretty standard. I wake up the next morning not remember anything really until Ryan rolls over and whines and says "it smells like warm urine" and then proceeds to laugh. It finally all come rushing back and I still swear to this day that he really had peed and Ryan just never found it. It really smelled like he had just peed!! Well now it seems I can't live it down and Ryan walks around saying it smells like warm urine. So I guess a little bit of crazy is starting to sneak out.